So I'm now apparently at THAT age. The age where everybody's getting in super lovey cutesy relationships, getting engaged, and married happily ever after in rapid succession. Aside from getting used to the numbers of single friends dwindling, I'm starting to try to figure out something else..why am I not like these people?
As misleading as the intro was, I'm actually in a relationship right now. He's a really decent guy; Christian (that's a must for me), kind, generous..just a nice guy. But in terms of our relationship, I have no desire to be like the dating friends we know. I don't want to be together EVERY second. I don't want to walk around when we're with groups of our friends (most of whom were actually my friends first..at the more than risk of sounding super immature and petty:/). I don't want to post all over facebook about us doing things together and about how I have sweetest most amazing boyfriend in the whole world. And while I'm not at all ashamed to be dating him, I still wanna be known and seen as more than his girlfriend. Oh and the thought of marriage? Still freaking me out; I couldnt agree to it right now.
So this leads me to wonder: do I just have a different personality than most girls at this stage in life..or do I actually love this guy at all. Should I even be dating him? I wish I knew..I don't want to dump him unless I know I have to, he's been with me through quite a bit. But I just don't know anymore:/
