Ever wonder what makes you different from somebody else? Not like, hair, eyes, skin, physical stuff; not even things like background and personality..though this is closer to what I mean. Like, have you ever been able to identify with someone on so many levels--thoughts, feelings, responses in some areas--and yet you end up taking very different paths in life? A friend and I seem to have more in common than some might guess..to the point where it kind of scares me sometimes. And yet, confronted even with some of the same life choices, we do different things. Why? I feel some of what she does, and her apparent thought process seems at time to parallel what mine is or would be in the situation. But somehow, I don't do what she does. I'm not perfect, but why do I have the strength to do at least *some* of the hard things? I know my Father (though I long to know Him so, so much more), and I have a family who truly loves and supports me more than they "have to." She used to say she knew Him, but now she doesn't. It's so sad for me to see, but I don't know what to do. As fallen as I've felt at times, I'll never quit, I'll never walk away. But WHY? I'm not better, I don't think I'm exceedingly strong..but I'm , even at my weakest, determined somehow. I don't understand..but I'm thankful..and I want to know Him more and be used.
Maybe He'd use me to reach her..somehow. I've tried so much, but she doesn't need ME. She needs HIM. I hope she truly comes to see that..but only He could really say where she is now. I don't know what keeps me from giving up while someone seemingly so similar to me openly walks away..but I won't give up on her, or on me..because, for whatever reason, I feel like He hasn't given up on me..
~Don't you know son that I love you? And I don't care where you've been? Please come home..~
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